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This is a story of Gerrie that was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and a interesting journey he is taking.Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.comBlogger47125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-43721302764254982872024-02-11T14:05:00.000-08:002024-02-11T14:05:16.209-08:00Preperation<p> Good evening all.</p><p><br /></p><p>So for years I have learned to prepare for the expected and unexpected in everyday life in my Journey. </p><p>So the past weeks I have been preparing again to go for my six monthly drips.. and then there was a glimmer of hope that I could go on the new and greatest medicine, but like all ofer world medical aids has a different time line. But I am fine with this as I know my time will come when it is the right time.</p><p>But I have learned again that I would rather focus on my blessings be thankful for the great stuff happening around me. </p><p>Over the past weeks been some fun MS battles from being bed ridden for 4 weeks and a week in hospital. But as I have learned my body needed it.</p><p>But in the bigger picture life is great and a blessing. </p><p>Have also had some fun and created MS awareness as below.</p><p><a href="https://www.facebook.com/1790232397/posts/pfbid02tv1R3Coi3UeePqhdn1XNgyPMq6Z3mdo6zXTBmWKMAFEUvnjeFJ3JWX5hCYgEACcUl/?">https://www.facebook.com/1790232397/posts/pfbid02tv1R3Coi3UeePqhdn1XNgyPMq6Z3mdo6zXTBmWKMAFEUvnjeFJ3JWX5hCYgEACcUl/?</a></p><p><a href="https://glanslewe.blogspot.com/2024/02/veelvuldige-sklerose-veterane-verf-die.html">https://glanslewe.blogspot.com/2024/02/veelvuldige-sklerose-veterane-verf-die.html</a></p><p>And these days are the days that take us forward.</p><p>Let us look forward and Keep S’Myelin</p>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com052 Zambesi St, Three Rivers, Vereeniging, 1935, South Africa-26.6537415 27.9748491-50.272609710009043 -7.1814009 -3.034873289990955 63.1310991tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-52035239091269684302023-09-20T12:45:00.000-07:002023-09-20T12:45:29.348-07:00The Grains of sand<p> As I live me life I come to realise we are more like the grains of sand in a desert. Each grain has iets place and needs to move as the wind and water and earth needs it to be and go. A grain can fight the wind the water but ultimately it will end in the place where it is needed. </p><p>Looking over a desert and reading the terrible news of the flooding in Libya we need to just try to support the people in need. People are being moved by mother nature in an terrible and tragic way, The lives lost and families destroyed and damaged caused we can not imagine. My heart goes out to all people that are suffering during these times.</p><p> It brings back my personal experience of the heartache the was caused by the Arib Spring some years ago, one the act of nature and other the act of the human kind.</p><p>Both started with a small grain of sand that shifted and changed the lives of so many people.</p><p>We need to respect the grain we are and what we doing to people around us… the question is it for the good to the people around you. Think hard before you start a grain rolling.</p><p>Please let us all be the best person we must be.</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p> </p>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-20097313044291506882023-07-05T14:54:00.000-07:002023-07-05T14:54:47.732-07:00So all starts falling in place<p> Years ago when I started my journey on blogging… most of them in dark corners in hospitals.. just to have some peace of mind .</p><p>I personally never thought I / we would be where we are know… the then a dream of a book is now reality although only Ebooks as yet. But in discussion with the printing side.. then a new story. </p><p>To have a book out in less then a month and have reached global exposure via online friends from US to europa, Australia, Asia, Africa. </p><p>Then all the media exposure is exceptional. But this thanks to a PR team making it happen.. </p><p>It also started stimulating my brain on Blogging again.</p><p>And today again aligning with a team of professional our web presence is out there… and it will grow. </p><p>www.smyelin.co.za</p><p>I would like to just share two youtube video’s not may own please see people that did them it just speaks to the the our Book Just keep S’Myelin line that positivity is a blessing and a help no matter what your situation. </p><p><a href="https://youtu.be/ura03MbXZKI">https://youtu.be/ura03MbXZKI</a></p><p><br /></p><p><a href="https://youtu.be/pXWihqmEjO0">https://youtu.be/pXWihqmEjO0</a></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1FJIpe6pcnA-HHTSwEB3Jb8bIyuHfMFS5_yenwPE9oGfyGyFLj3A1nzK1BHDKBPT39dqakLAcFAtymcY67qg1WkpiUXy2n-azJfrlD7N4g-e5xu3JTHQzxceYnwEGa2nL-QI_yOKQpZFdwKD1XIKWWhBcDcvT6Lnpjt-kq2BKDG86GwWc3j7RSQcMltS_/s500/Logo.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="500" data-original-width="500" height="182" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1FJIpe6pcnA-HHTSwEB3Jb8bIyuHfMFS5_yenwPE9oGfyGyFLj3A1nzK1BHDKBPT39dqakLAcFAtymcY67qg1WkpiUXy2n-azJfrlD7N4g-e5xu3JTHQzxceYnwEGa2nL-QI_yOKQpZFdwKD1XIKWWhBcDcvT6Lnpjt-kq2BKDG86GwWc3j7RSQcMltS_/w182-h182/Logo.jpg" width="182" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0Zambesi St & Sabie St, Three Rivers, Vereeniging, 1929, South Africa-26.653595 27.976013-26.654553870594331 27.974940116394041 -26.652636129405668 27.977085883605955tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-44229955976647749922022-07-18T05:06:00.002-07:002022-07-18T05:06:43.237-07:00Protect Hearts while brain breaks down Body.<p> Good day</p><p>Let me start with a small disclaimer.</p><p style="text-align: center;"><i><b>Please note what ever I put in this blog is from my heart based on some facts but names and places have been changed to protect the not so innocent.</b></i></p><p>I want to start by thanking friends, family and loved ones that have over the past 11 years supported and carried me. </p><p>Once again this weekend was so cool to meet new people that just don't judge.</p><p>The story today is a short but relevant story maybe to more people then we think.</p><p>So after my diagnosis of MS I was confused, scared, uncertain....... This then made me take some decisions for myself but also for people in my life.</p><p>So we all know the story of the Heart and the Brain in your body, personally there as been numerous times where I asked myself do you make a Heart decision or a Brain Decision. Funny most of the times these decisions are polar opposites to each other.</p><p>So what do you do to protect Hearts.. My own and people Around me. </p><p>So we PWMS (People with MS) types have this big challenge that our Brain is gradually breaking down our body. Losing feelings in hands, Then Feet, the Eye sight, then... and so we go on. But our Hearts are somehow being protected physically, but that emotional Heart, that Heart that talks about <b>caring, love and support</b>. </p><p>So I needed to make a clear understanding that I would never want to be a burden to anyone specially a loved one. So now we have in my body the brain breaking me down physical... gradually. I have a heart that has a need to reach out to people and loved ones and then the reality... </p><p>So this reality is constantly changing and fighting inside a body that is sometimes in pain, sometimes numb sometimes great. The constant fighting of the heart is a real challenge more then the physical challenges of MS.</p><p>So protecting Hearts of people you sometimes need to walk away, have a clear do not enter sign on the heart. So this a view to protect other Hearts not necessary one own heart, but these action sadly sometime leads to heartache to people you care about. </p><p style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #111111; font-family: Roboto, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: left;"> “Whatever makes an impression on the heart seems lovely in the eye.” —Sadi</span></p><p style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #111111; font-family: Roboto, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: left;"><br /></span></p><p style="text-align: center;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #111111; font-family: Roboto, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; text-align: left;"></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiLgl9QiIRUknpRp-OptADIbwXIYg_qcZnY8KCHNOTsJap1AxMKqL9xjttGCblxdJlPrUG2CvPYoDGBTstAVdZF60gK92-WNtmtCdCbrrx7F0ZRxmLssxIQUlvyLstI6-KbICn_DLCg82hR0aPqAvOH1DT5tFJj4ECQxIDjLQOYnc7wFzTkQ7ybrdzc8A" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="2048" data-original-width="1535" height="159" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiLgl9QiIRUknpRp-OptADIbwXIYg_qcZnY8KCHNOTsJap1AxMKqL9xjttGCblxdJlPrUG2CvPYoDGBTstAVdZF60gK92-WNtmtCdCbrrx7F0ZRxmLssxIQUlvyLstI6-KbICn_DLCg82hR0aPqAvOH1DT5tFJj4ECQxIDjLQOYnc7wFzTkQ7ybrdzc8A=w119-h159" width="119" /></a></div><br /><br /><p></p>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-25204983750854803562022-06-29T03:21:00.001-07:002022-06-29T03:23:59.725-07:00Just Need to return to excepting<p> Good day all,</p><p>After a long period of silence I am back as it has taken me some time to get myself in the correct mind space.</p><p>I still Remember posting the post about Inner Peace and after tests on Monday this was a clear message to myself. I need Inner peace.</p><p>In the words of my specialist Gerrie you have been Diagnosed with MS for over 10 years and you will get weaker, things will fall, you will walk into walls and the pain will continue. But I need to decide in my headspace if it will affect me, or change me. </p><p>As we live our lives we as people have a negative outlook at our lives and what we have. After traveling around South Africa and seeing places and meeting people that I never thought of meeting. You have your hours and days of going back in your past.</p><p>Starting at the place that I experienced the most sadness, confused as ever before, uncertainty and the sense of loss. As we were standing next to the grave and looking at the candle burning in the wind, the words of Sir Elton John Runs through your head Candle in the wind the version that was played for Princess Diana just few weeks after Gerda.<br /><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRL5g9ajgqQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRL5g9ajgqQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player</a><br /><br />Thinking about that time I still remember a good friend of Gerda saying that at least they will both be in good company.<br /><br />The moment of "MAKE PEACE AND LIVE IN LOVE " Is born!<br /><br />We as people need to make peace. The death Of a loved one, the loss of loved ones, death of a child, and Severe or terminal illness, we need to make peace to really live in love.<br /><br />PEACE IS ABOUT<br />People - Starting with me myself and I<br />Emotions - Aceptance, Regret and forgiveness<br />Action - Reaching out and embracing<br />Commitment - people love, and unconditional love<br />Energy - Positive Energy<br /><br />It's in times like these that you become quite and humbled with what we have.<br />As we live our lives we all get challenged with OPPORTUNITIES. We have the choice what to do with this what we want to . So we can hide it, we can ignore it or we can work with it. But the choice is our own. I have learned that the universe will always give us chance to make PEACE with these opportunities. It has taken me years to realise that we need to live in love, as the world can only be a better place if we are surrounded by love.<br /><br />But love can only be there if you are at total PEACE with yourselve and all that is around you, the people and the individual challenges.<br /><br />As a South African I have been given opportunities to learn, but as I look back I realised that I still need to learn from all the new and old opportunities that I am surrounded with.<br /><br />So I feel now that I am learning about making peace and Living in love, life is just getting better.<br /><br />We as people can overcome everything if we have peace in our heart and truly live in love.</p>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com451 Zambesi St, Three Rivers, Vereeniging, 1935, South Africa-26.6538363 27.975634-26.655754050178956 27.973488232788085 -26.65191854982104 27.977779767211914tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-51775315490141173082019-11-29T22:52:00.001-08:002019-11-29T22:52:58.438-08:00So we live to Learn<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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As I finish off day four with Aubagio I am thankful that I do not have any side-effects. Happy and positive looking forward to the treatment.<br />
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I must try that during these days it is made me think of what I'm thankful for.<br />
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Today has been a physical day where attending a site meeting and needed to be on my feet for a long period of time. This did create some uncomfortable feelings in my back and legs, I am also to blame as I did not wear my support care for my legs and feet. I know that it is difficult for myself to agree that I do need to wear my support gear. I think it is a matter of proudness or stupidity.<br />
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So after today I can personally say that the treatment will be positive.<br />
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So Today 7 June 2017 I have taken my first Aubagio tablet!<br />
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Over the next few days I will be re-focusing my journey on taking new medication.<br />
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During this journey I will be taking <a href="https://www.aubagio.com/" target="_blank">Aubagio</a> on a daily basis. Currently I am extremely nervous/anxious as I'm not exactly sure what to expect.<br />
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I'm using my iPad with voice to text to do the Blog.<br />
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The journey to getting permission from medical aid for the treatment has been a extremely long and exhausting exercise. with the support of family friends and MSSA we are on the brink of the new treatment.<br />
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I will be using the Internet and social media to give a journal of my treatment. Personally I am very positive that the journey we are taking now will have a long-term positive affect.<br />
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I am hoping that the start of the new journey will add value to other Multiple Sclerosis.<br />
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Let us Keep S'Myelin.<br />
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Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-38358348881935476652013-09-12T04:37:00.001-07:002013-09-21T01:23:58.335-07:00New Phase <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Hi there all buddies I have been somewhat quite for reasons I needed to be. I have just launched the next phase of my journey please register and continue my blog and the "Enriching Life's" program<br />
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Thanks for the support please Register to follow blog on new site.<br />
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Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-9919377505555973642013-08-04T04:08:00.000-07:002013-08-04T04:08:06.680-07:00The Puzzle of Life<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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of this running in my head I was not sure how to look at this. But I started
the process as I do. All the “W” questions:<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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running in my head I started to gather information and information, but also
forgetting information as we with MS do. So I continued working with all
this information for days and weeks on end and realizing I was going
nowhere.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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realised that the information was creating my own Puzzle of life my
experiences, my pain, my joy, my anger, my happiness.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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I started building my puzzle, as I do it is easy to put the pieces
that are already joined down. When that was done I started the outside border.
But this created a huge battle as I could not get the border worked out, so
after a while of battling with the borders I decided I need to just stand back
and have a look at what is going on. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-language: EN-ZA;">And then
it struck me there is not one puzzle, I have a number of Puzzle's that I need
to complete, one for each phase or process or what we what to call it of our Life
journey.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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started the puzzle building of my life. This is the most interesting puzzling I
have done as I could work on more the one puzzle at a time. It
was also interesting to see that some of these puzzles are
actually interlinked with each other.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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there was the realisation that some of the pieces of these puzzles where
missing and I need to go and look for them. I did find some but I Realised that
as my journey continues I will be getting those pieces that are
missing.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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looking at the Puzzle I see so much more but I also still see that I have piece
missing but the best and exiting part is that there is a pile of pieces
left one side that will create a new puzzle or a new Dimension
to my Journey of Life. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-language: EN-ZA;">So let us
all build our Puzzles and enjoy them!<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're
not alone.”</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-26659844684999340792013-06-15T03:44:00.001-07:002013-06-15T03:44:50.345-07:00Losing Battle<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
As we all have lived our life's we do have those battles that we continue to struggle with. These battles could be in our personal live, work related, love life and so it does continue.<br />
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So for me having the Battle with Multiple Sclerosis has been my biggest losing battle to date, as every day is a blessing but also a challenge. As every day is a blessing and it is great to spend time with friends and family.But then there is the battle that is always with you and the fun part of the battle is that it changes from day to day.<br />
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The one day it could by that I am having <a href="http://www.nationalmssociety.org/about-multiple-sclerosis/what-we-know-about-ms/symptoms/visualsymptoms/optic-neuritis/index.aspx" target="_blank">Optic Neuritis</a> and my eyes are really painful and there is nothing to do just let it pass by. The next day could be walking down stairs and losing the feeling and balance in my legs. Then it could be a day where you have coffee with a friend and my hands shake so that is can't open the sugar. Then the days where I realise that the feeling in my hands are getting less and less.<br />
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But I have also realised that excepting that this battle is a losing battle and making peace with what will and is happing to me is all part of a bigger plan. Also have knowing that I have no idea what is this bigger plan does bring peace to me.<br />
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So I hope that all of us that have <b>Losing Battles</b> can find peace that point of <b>Equilibrium</b> (my favourite word) and really live our life to the full.<br />
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<b style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 20px; line-height: 26px; outline: 0px; text-decoration: none;"><a href="http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/e/ezrataftbe108844.html" style="color: #222222; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 20px; line-height: 26px; outline: 0px; text-decoration: none;" title="view quote">Some of the greatest battles will be fought within the silent chambers of your own soul.</a></b></div>
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<a href="http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/authors/e/ezra_taft_benson.html" style="color: #0000aa; text-decoration: none;" title="view author">Ezra Taft Benson</a></div>
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Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0Three Rivers, Vereeniging, South Africa-26.648647763688494 27.973337173461914-26.652195763688493 27.968294673461916 -26.645099763688496 27.978379673461912tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-89171239016180589492013-05-14T13:09:00.001-07:002013-05-14T13:20:51.022-07:00Treadmill <p>So in general I have been writing about life,  love and peace and my favourite Equilibrium but today it is about me and Treadmill and MS. </p>
<p>So this started on Saturday Evening after a unbelievable birthday bash for a close friend of mine. So the short story is that I was accompanied by a most unbelievable friend that have been with me through the darkest days of my MS journey. </p>
<p>So as the night carried on it started a relapse in my legs,  she was there to make sure that I was never embarrassed by my weakness. When we left she had full faith when I said I was fine in driving the car.  She never made it uncomfortable for me. </p>
<p>It is during times like this that in know I am blessed with my friends that respect me. </p>
<p>I now know that I will be submitted to hospital shortly to assist with this. </p>
<p>Walking on the Treadmill today at gym and focusing on getting one foot in front of the next made me feel alive again.  That the Universe does give us our own Equilibrium we need to just accept it. </p>
<p>Listening to the following it was view that it was fine to accept that we need to move forward with all in our life. </p>
<p><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBumgq5yVrA&feature=youtube_gdata_player">Passenger -  Let her go</a></p>
<p>With life as a whole from love to pain. </p>
Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-40094891031515202272013-04-26T12:07:00.001-07:002013-04-26T12:10:25.361-07:00Family <p>Family </p>
<p>Having been blessed to spend time with extended family for the past week it just made me rethink how lucky I am to have such an amasing extended family.</p>
<p>These last few days made me think about the importance of family and extended family. </p>
<p>I have been thinking how the best to break it down so I will try my best:</p>
<p>F - Friends with this as a base to my family I have been blessed to get through the challenges in my live. I can always rely on them to up lift me from the days that all is well and the days spend in hospital.</p>
<p>A - Approval by this it is not to get approval but that the people around me give me approval for what I do with no hidden agendas. </p>
<p>M - Maturity to accept me for what I am and for what I will be going through in the future. Take me for person with MS I am and to not question what I do or say. </p>
<p>I - Individuality of every person that I have met with during this time.  From the Practise Manager that met me at my worst while having Chemotherapy, the Doctor that was bringing us food during my treatment,  the people that send me the Angel of Miracles from Ireland,  the people sharing a Jameson Whiskey on a road trip through Ireland, people running marathons on my behalf, and so I can continue. </p>
<p>L - Love for every single person that have changed and is changing my life on a daily basis. This is my direct family, my kids,  my brother from another mother 27 years down the line, Doc E for 15 years to the new individual people I have got to know the last week. </p>
<p>Y - Y? To all the people around me to help me with the question why? I have made peace with the question on why? But thanks to the family around me I can except the future and live in the moment. </p>
<p>So with this I want to thank my family for trying to make me a better person. </p>
<p>Thanks</p>
Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-60532030774512912212013-02-10T23:26:00.000-08:002013-02-10T23:26:34.158-08:00Kryptonite<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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As we live our lives we all get these experiences of
Kryptonite. This is always in various stages in our life.</div>
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This could be in one of more of the following:</div>
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Listening to the song by Kryptonite by “3 Door Down” <a href="http://youtu.be/xPU8OAjjS4k">http://youtu.be/xPU8OAjjS4k</a> I realised again that I have these pieces of
Kryptonite that I fear, these pieces are mainly a mental block to all I want to
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I need to as I do with my physical challenges due to the
Multiple Sclerosis I need to make a decision regarding what pieces of
Kryptonite I can just dispose of or which ones do I need to get a work around. </div>
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I was fortunate that I was and am supported by my company
and friends to help with the career pieces but this decision was a decision
that was a process over time. I am thankful for all that have and are still
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Relationships and love I do feel this is the piece that is
the hardest piece to deal with as there are always the emotional and the Intellectual
combination of this. It has taken me years to accept the passing of the Mother
of my children and surely the love of my life. This in itself is a piece of
Kryptonite as there will always be a comparison made or questions asked in my
mind am I doing right to the other person. So walking away is always a safe
option, not the correct one but safe.</div>
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During my illness I experiences pieces of Kryptonite weekly,
as it is the weakening of a limb, eyesight being a challenge, losing sensation
in my hands or just the everyday pain. But I have realised if you take each piece
and manage it for what it is then it all becomes manageable and in the end it
does work out.</div>
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So I am hoping to continue daily weekly breaking down my
Kryptonite so that I can continue down this journey I have taken. I do believe
that we all as people can live the life that we want for ourselves and for our
loved ones.</div>
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Thanks again to all for making me breakdown the hold that “Kryptonite”
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moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable,
unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our
discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for
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Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-17809668245464745652013-01-21T13:43:00.001-08:002013-01-22T03:35:20.268-08:00We can let go.... <p>As I have started this journey I was not sure where I was hoping to go with it. I knew that like any journey it starts with the first step.</p>
<p>So now that after the past months and weeks where I was going through my own way of clearing the past and working through some real challenging relapses almost on a daily basis I just was blessed by so many things.</p>
<p>The day that I actually made time to take Maria home, she has been looking after me and the kids for 7 plus years I had that sense that there is no equilibrium in the life as we know it.; I was taking Maria home with old clothes and a bed and so much more that we where disposing of as if it was old stuff. Her whole family was so pleased with what we have delivered as they could use it. </p>
<p>It brought the words of Koos Kombuis and his song African Skyline so much back to reality. That this continent we live in and that we love is the harshest place on earth. While some are fighting for love and hunger the rest are just not seeing the picture.</p>
<p>For me to have started a journey of a drifter with no to little personal position, a camera bag, a tablet and back packers pack my eyes have learned what I have never wanted to learn. </p>
<p>It makes me think of the days as boys where we would play on the dump site and create our own toys. As that is how we did it those days in the industrial community we where in. We where the outcasts as we where those kids. The ones the parents warned you about but through sport we could prove ourselves as the masters. But that started creating the winning is not everything but is the only thing behaviour.... And that is and was also a sad day.</p>
<p>As my son and myself was clearing out the house we had David coming to us and removing some unwanted stuff from our house. And I will never forget that at the end he was holding Jean's and my hands and telling us like in nature the big birds would go and find the food and bring it back to the smaller birds to feed, he was comparing Jean and myself as the big birds bringing food home to his family. We (Jean and myself) was not sure if we should cry or hug this man. As I am sure it is a lesson that we will never forget.</p>
<p>So now I know that this journey with its new direction and living each day as it comes is actually worth it.<br>
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Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-49151154571039657812012-12-26T09:12:00.001-08:002012-12-26T09:40:39.768-08:00What legacy? <p>So we always have a feeling that we need to achieve something that we forget to take a break or to just take care of ourselves. </p>
<p>Having been going through weeks of relapses and treatment and tests and decided to get rid of almost all my earthly positions life just opens up to a reality of what it is about. I always had questions why "Oom Cor"  did what he did.  He had the vision to see beyond his pain and his heartache and made the choice to live a life. </p>
<p>He lived a life where he leaves a legacy behind, not a legacy of wealth and riches but a legacy of embracing people and touching people's hearts. I have this feeling that most people are hoping for a legacy of wealth. I hope that as the world did not come to a end that we as people will be thinking about the legacy we will be leaving behind. </p>
<p>As I am sitting on a patio and watching how the African summer rain falls from the sky and how the water naturally cleans everything in its way.  I realise that I also needed to get myself cleaned. As the summer rains cleaning is a process so do I need to follow a process. </p>
<p>Reading the book" It's your time" by Joel Osteen I have learned and am learning as I go along.  A Quote by the author is:</p>
<p>"Enjoy the journey.  There will always be another dream, another goal, another challenge. "</p>
<p>Let us all just build a legacy of love and caring! </p>
Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-16389658122301909822012-11-29T23:36:00.001-08:002012-12-01T21:21:42.364-08:00As our walls tumble <div><p>We as people can overcome everything if we have peace in our heart. </p>
<p>So as we live our lives we have these times that it feels that all the walls around us are tumbling. These walls that have given us hope and security for our live as we know it. As these walls tumble brick by brick, layer by layer we experience some of the most severe pain,  both physical and Always emotional. </p>
<p>We try with all our might to keep these bricks up to keep these walls that are "Protecting"  in place. But the Bricks keep on falling and we stay focused on keeping these walls in place. </p>
<p>But we can't keep up the fight with these walls, as each brick crashes down we fell the pain and we build up anger. With this anger and pain we experience each brick more intensely. </p>
<p>As we are fighting the fall of the walls we don't just take a deep breath and stand back to see what is happening. </p>
<p>I have been blessed that I was forced to take that deep breath and just stand still. In the past 48 hours I was blessed by collapsing down some stairs. I was to proud to walk with my support braces and met mother earth on a tar mat. Lucky I only picked up some scratches... </p>
<p>Eventually sitting in my car and trying to get myself together the picture fell into place.... I needed not to fight anymore the collapsing of the wall. I should use these bricks that have fallen and stand on them and look beyond these walls,  as there it was the most beautiful surroundings of nature and blessings. </p>
<p>So I realised that I needed to first come down (Hard)  to mother earth to lift myself from where I was fighting each brick instead of using it to see what is on the other side. </p>
<p>So I hope with this in our mind we can all enjoy our blessings that await us if we just reach out for it. Use the bricks to build a ladder over the wall that is keeping us in closed. </p>
</div>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-5137525516904369012012-11-06T12:01:00.001-08:002012-11-06T12:03:41.547-08:00Tuesday with Morrie - a year on<div><p>A year ago a dear friend of mine took me to a Afrikaans version of the book Tuesday with Morrie by Mitch Albom. What a special birthday gift by someone so special.  Now a year later reading the book again there are so many life lessons to learn from this book,  as with the play the book also brings tears to my eyes. </p>
<p>How can I use the knowledge and humanity that is captured in this literature to change myself. </p>
<p>As I have those bad MS days I have so much to be thankful for that I must and will be making changes in my life that is the correct decision for my kids and my family and my friends. </p>
<p>I have been informed about how people globally are helping me, currently the detail is still very unclear but it is a blessing that I can't explain. Thanks to those involved. I will be using this help to reach out to people close to me. </p>
<p>A Quote from the book is as follows:</p>
<p>"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."</p>
<p>Let us all make small changes as this will create at the big change. </p>
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<p>This being a year that started with the reality of my career has come to a end and that my life will be changed. The uncertainty off this dark journey was overwhelming. </p>
<p>But now looking back at the year I have tears of joy in my eyes. How can one explain the following :</p>
<p>Stop your career as it is the correct decision, with the great support from my global SAP family. <br>
Receiving glasses that can assist you in the day to day life experiences. <br>
Successfully having Chemotherapy with the support of friends holding your hand. <br>
Having Prosthetic supports made for your legs that I could walk 3 km on the beach with close friends. <br>
Receiving the news that my mom will return home after being extremely ill for almost 5 months. <br>
Having a friend run the Dublin marathon on my behalf a day before your birthday. </p>
<p>So looking at this I have had a year with blessings that have been given to me by people that will always be close to me emotional and spiritual. It is just amasing that due to the technology the world has become a small world. </p>
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<p>Thanks to all for this journey. </p>
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<p>These changes can happen it various ways.  We meet new people, we loss old friends, we reunite with loved ones, we remember loved ones that have passed on, we fall ill,  we heal.......  And so the list can continue. </p>
<p>But I still believe that we all need to focus on what we want from live but also most important we need to focus on what we will be giving back to live. </p>
<p>It is actually so true that by giving we will receive even more.  By giving I am not talking in any financial terms I am talking about giving from your self, emotional and spiritual. </p>
<p>Personally I have been given this journey to make me realise this. That at the moment when you are financial the lowest point of your live and also know that the future will not improve financially and you are blessed with opportunities to learn from other people. I could allow myself to be a sponge and take up all the emotional and spiritual experiences around me.  These experiences made me force to get live back into that equilibrium that I needed. </p>
<p>"A weak man has doubts before a decision. A strong man has them afterwards."<br>
Carl Kraus</p>
</div>Keep S'Myelinhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16129594954429862039noreply@blogger.com1Plettenberg Bay, Plettenberg Bay-34.05 23.366667tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8436203337915391345.post-22039019323716580642012-10-06T03:20:00.000-07:002012-10-06T03:20:21.730-07:00Ourselves<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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lives a dark side. Some of us embrace it. Some have no choice. The rest of us
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