As our walls tumble

We as people can overcome everything if we have peace in our heart.

So as we live our lives we have these times that it feels that all the walls around us are tumbling. These walls that have given us hope and security for our live as we know it. As these walls tumble brick by brick, layer by layer we experience some of the most severe pain,  both physical and Always emotional.

We try with all our might to keep these bricks up to keep these walls that are "Protecting"  in place. But the Bricks keep on falling and we stay focused on keeping these walls in place.

But we can't keep up the fight with these walls, as each brick crashes down we fell the pain and we build up anger. With this anger and pain we experience each brick more intensely.

As we are fighting the fall of the walls we don't just take a deep breath and stand back to see what is happening.

I have been blessed that I was forced to take that deep breath and just stand still. In the past 48 hours I was blessed by collapsing down some stairs. I was to proud to walk with my support braces and met mother earth on a tar mat. Lucky I only picked up some scratches...

Eventually sitting in my car and trying to get myself together the picture fell into place.... I needed not to fight anymore the collapsing of the wall. I should use these bricks that have fallen and stand on them and look beyond these walls,  as there it was the most beautiful surroundings of nature and blessings.

So I realised that I needed to first come down (Hard)  to mother earth to lift myself from where I was fighting each brick instead of using it to see what is on the other side.

So I hope with this in our mind we can all enjoy our blessings that await us if we just reach out for it. Use the bricks to build a ladder over the wall that is keeping us in closed.

Tuesday with Morrie - a year on

A year ago a dear friend of mine took me to a Afrikaans version of the book Tuesday with Morrie by Mitch Albom. What a special birthday gift by someone so special.  Now a year later reading the book again there are so many life lessons to learn from this book,  as with the play the book also brings tears to my eyes.

How can I use the knowledge and humanity that is captured in this literature to change myself.

As I have those bad MS days I have so much to be thankful for that I must and will be making changes in my life that is the correct decision for my kids and my family and my friends.

I have been informed about how people globally are helping me, currently the detail is still very unclear but it is a blessing that I can't explain. Thanks to those involved. I will be using this help to reach out to people close to me.

A Quote from the book is as follows:

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important. This is because they're chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

Let us all make small changes as this will create at the big change.

Angel of Miracles

Trusting in life’s everyday miracles

So in days like this that I am reminded that people around me bring me so much Hope. It makes me also think why am I so blessed in my life by people from 11 000 km away. People that have had their own Heartache and Sorrow have sent me the following:

Angel of Miracles

Trusting in life’s everyday miracles

www.willowtree.info

Thanks for bringing so much love and blessing into my life. This will always have a special place in my Heart and my Home.

New Tidings

What a honour and blessing to come to the end of year and look back on all the great experiences one has had.

This being a year that started with the reality of my career has come to a end and that my life will be changed. The uncertainty off this dark journey was overwhelming.

But now looking back at the year I have tears of joy in my eyes. How can one explain the following :

Stop your career as it is the correct decision, with the great support from my global SAP family.
Receiving glasses that can assist you in the day to day life experiences.
Successfully having Chemotherapy with the support of friends holding your hand.
Having Prosthetic supports made for your legs that I could walk 3 km on the beach with close friends.
Receiving the news that my mom will return home after being extremely ill for almost 5 months.
Having a friend run the Dublin marathon on my behalf a day before your birthday.

So looking at this I have had a year with blessings that have been given to me by people that will always be close to me emotional and spiritual. It is just amasing that due to the technology the world has become a small world.

Below just a quote for the moment :

Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."

- Mary Anne Radmacher

Thanks to all for this journey.

RIP Brain

On a day like today I am humbled and thankful for knowing the man.

RIP - Brian Twiggs 

"Now what else is the whole life of mortals, but a sort of comedy in which the various actors, disguised by various costumes and masks, walk on and play each ones part until the manager walks them off the stage?"

“Erasmus”

Africa Force

From the Heart on a plane.

As we live our lives we all need to decide what we want from it.  The reality is that it will change direction as we live it.

These changes can happen it various ways.  We meet new people, we loss old friends, we reunite with loved ones, we remember loved ones that have passed on, we fall ill,  we heal.......  And so the list can continue.

But I still believe that we all need to focus on what we want from live but also most important we need to focus on what we will be giving back to live.

It is actually so true that by giving we will receive even more.  By giving I am not talking in any financial terms I am talking about giving from your self, emotional and spiritual.

Personally I have been given this journey to make me realise this. That at the moment when you are financial the lowest point of your live and also know that the future will not improve financially and you are blessed with opportunities to learn from other people. I could allow myself to be a sponge and take up all the emotional and spiritual experiences around me.  These experiences made me force to get live back into that equilibrium that I needed.

"A weak man has doubts before a decision. A strong man has them afterwards."
Carl Kraus

Ourselves

During this current journey I have had so many questions, so much fear and yet I realise the will to continue is by far the strongest.

As we with MS have a battle day in and day out not really knowing what to expect the next day, the next week or not even to think about the future. We wake up every morning with knowing that the fight against MS will and must continue. It is always saddens me when you know that we as people are not meant to have to do this and that that day might come when you feel that the fight now has to stop.

But with this fight we are almost sure to really find ourselves we get to know what we want to do and what we can achieve. It is important that we just need to focus on the fact that our will to win this fight is much stronger than anything else.

The quote below just appealed to me so much.

"I believe humanity was born from conflict. Maybe that's why in all of us lives a dark side. Some of us embrace it. Some have no choice. The rest of us fight it. And in the end, it's as natural as the air we breathe. Some point, we're forced to face the truth...ourselves."

Penelope Garcia

So thanks to all friends, family and MS family that make this fight against MS a Journey and not a Battle Field.