So while spending Time in Hospital having drugs pumped through you body we have time to think and attempt putting some words down. If have just called it Words 1 to 5 as the the phases in my life. (my kids, my Death of Wife, a separation and the Multiple Sclerosis)
Words 1
So we live
So we learn
So we give
Then we earn
This is our life
We need to accept
With no regret
We should live to Laugh
We need to Laugh with tears
We need to forget our Fears
Live to love
Accept that we must Forgive
Knowing we do not forget
Our life is a Blessing
So we live Life
Words 2
So life starts
With eyes of stars
From Parents and God Parents
From the baby in a loving mothers arms
And a dad with dreams and fears
So a life is given to a new and uncertain Family
Not having any idea of any changes that will happen to the family
Some really great experiences
That brought tears of joy as we lived these experiences
And we as a family of four we lived in a house
No not a house but a home
A really loving home with real experiences
Not that the home did not have its crosses
But we carried each our own cross
And made it work by joining our crosses.
But then came the day of divine intervention
The day of the biggest separation
One has ever planned for.
On a lovely August after noon she was taken from us
Ripped out of the heart of many of us
From Kids, Father, Step Mom, Parents in Law and husband
And so many loved ones friends, Teachers from the community, friends and Children
So this was life changing
But as we think this is the worst no this was the start of the new life.
Words 3
The new life starts
A great life with love certainly
With uncertainly of love
With support for all
With helping to kill the pain
But also just covering the Pain
With the illusion of wealth
With the illusion of health
But like all pain it has to get out and it did
Ended after 7 years of covering up
And ended in a quick separation
And this was an interesting separation
But as agreed long over due
The separation meant the lost of a mother to 2 children
The lost of another set of god parents to 2 children
And the lost of friendships
But after 7 years this is now fine
Words 4
Then the new found Single life
The life with so many M’s
A life with Twins
A life with lot of friends for what reason
But after time they came clear the reason
For each and every one
We made friends
We lost friends
We hurt people
We got hurt by people
We made real life friends
We still walk the road with some of them
We cry with them
We love with them
And you really love them
They are the ones that just uplift us
They the ones that carry us
You meet people from 20 years ago
You met people from 14 years ago
Then there are those that you would see over a conference table
And those you could meet over a conference table
Those that you meet by eye contact
Those you will meet during “Purple Rain” (by Prince formally known as Prince)
Those you will touch during “Belong to you” (by Anastasia)
People you will meet at a wedding
People that you would great at a wedding
People that you meet at Greek Easy
And then become soul mates for life
Then you lose people because of Stuff
You accept that it was just stuff
This was the most interesting, fun and painful time of one’s life
But that also makes our Life.
Words 5
This is currently my personal life
This is my life
We all get challenges in life
But there is always the one that is really from left side
So 26 months ago I was diagnosed with MS
What the hell is MS when will it end this MS
But as time goes you realise it is like people in your life
There are those symptoms that are friends that stick around
Then those Symptoms that will just be there for some time
Then those that have been there for Years
and will be there for years
Then one day you realise that this is the end of the road
There is a T junction in the Road
You have to make a decision on this road
Still be the brave and strong one
Or make the correct decision on this one
There will be no turning back
As you wake up each day and realising that the pass is the pass
Every day you are weaker
Your legs are weaker
Your arms are weaker
Your sight is weaker
Your life is weaker
You thank your friends
You thank your Family
You Thank the ones u Love
You regret the ones you lost
This is a personal journey
This is the Gerrie Journey
And realise that your personal strength can only take so much
And a change is not submission
It is for the better to the people around you
You’re Kids, Family, Friends and Loved ones
Every day is a challenge
You not sure what to expect
But there are still so much to be positive about
And that is what makes us, create it
Thanks to all for the support all small SMS’s , email, a coffee,
Chocolate at hospital, just saying hi.
We have so much to be great full about
Just find it and live it
And those BlackBerry chats from Cape Town and Philadelphia
Thanks
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