New Tidings

What a honour and blessing to come to the end of year and look back on all the great experiences one has had.

This being a year that started with the reality of my career has come to a end and that my life will be changed. The uncertainty off this dark journey was overwhelming.

But now looking back at the year I have tears of joy in my eyes. How can one explain the following :

Stop your career as it is the correct decision, with the great support from my global SAP family.
Receiving glasses that can assist you in the day to day life experiences.
Successfully having Chemotherapy with the support of friends holding your hand.
Having Prosthetic supports made for your legs that I could walk 3 km on the beach with close friends.
Receiving the news that my mom will return home after being extremely ill for almost 5 months.
Having a friend run the Dublin marathon on my behalf a day before your birthday.

So looking at this I have had a year with blessings that have been given to me by people that will always be close to me emotional and spiritual. It is just amasing that due to the technology the world has become a small world.

Below just a quote for the moment :

Courage doesn't always roar.
Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,
"I will try again tomorrow."

- Mary Anne Radmacher

Thanks to all for this journey.

RIP Brain

On a day like today I am humbled and thankful for knowing the man.

RIP - Brian Twiggs 

"Now what else is the whole life of mortals, but a sort of comedy in which the various actors, disguised by various costumes and masks, walk on and play each ones part until the manager walks them off the stage?"

“Erasmus”

Africa Force

From the Heart on a plane.

As we live our lives we all need to decide what we want from it.  The reality is that it will change direction as we live it.

These changes can happen it various ways.  We meet new people, we loss old friends, we reunite with loved ones, we remember loved ones that have passed on, we fall ill,  we heal.......  And so the list can continue.

But I still believe that we all need to focus on what we want from live but also most important we need to focus on what we will be giving back to live.

It is actually so true that by giving we will receive even more.  By giving I am not talking in any financial terms I am talking about giving from your self, emotional and spiritual.

Personally I have been given this journey to make me realise this. That at the moment when you are financial the lowest point of your live and also know that the future will not improve financially and you are blessed with opportunities to learn from other people. I could allow myself to be a sponge and take up all the emotional and spiritual experiences around me.  These experiences made me force to get live back into that equilibrium that I needed.

"A weak man has doubts before a decision. A strong man has them afterwards."
Carl Kraus

Ourselves

During this current journey I have had so many questions, so much fear and yet I realise the will to continue is by far the strongest.

As we with MS have a battle day in and day out not really knowing what to expect the next day, the next week or not even to think about the future. We wake up every morning with knowing that the fight against MS will and must continue. It is always saddens me when you know that we as people are not meant to have to do this and that that day might come when you feel that the fight now has to stop.

But with this fight we are almost sure to really find ourselves we get to know what we want to do and what we can achieve. It is important that we just need to focus on the fact that our will to win this fight is much stronger than anything else.

The quote below just appealed to me so much.

"I believe humanity was born from conflict. Maybe that's why in all of us lives a dark side. Some of us embrace it. Some have no choice. The rest of us fight it. And in the end, it's as natural as the air we breathe. Some point, we're forced to face the truth...ourselves."

Penelope Garcia

So thanks to all friends, family and MS family that make this fight against MS a Journey and not a Battle Field.

Strongest Soul

We all have our own demons that haunt us and we can choose to overcome them or they us.  So after my walk today with the new Prosthetic legs I realised that it is another demon that I can put behind me.

Thanks to all that have been there for me and supporting me.

"Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls. The most massive characters are seared with scars."
Khalil Gibran